Monday, September 8, 2008

Dirge to my friendship.

You know, I hate to post here again but there are those people who never refuse to back down, never refuse to admit their own mistakes and always always always believe that people will be kind to them and giving in to whatever they want eventually. Bravo to those lucky ones.  Spoiled to the extreme shitheads.

I have sent my last prayers to my already estranged best friend today. After this, everything is said and done.

I am sick and tired of entertaining her, she can finds some better things to do in her life and so can I with my life. I have been playing NICE with her for WAY too long and it is getting to the point where it is bad for my own health.

As a friend, she doesn't give a fuck about others, I wonder why I kept her as a friend for so long. Maybe it was because I liked her too much. Well, whatever it is. This is the terminal and I actually feel more tranquil now after the nails in the coffin. I was, am a strong willed person and will never bow down to others, but I did to hers because I care about her.. a great deal, a lot more than anyone.

Regardless, now, I don't give a shit. You know, you can say I am headstrong, but this idea has been brewing in my mind for a LONG LONG time.  I have given up too much too long. Now, I am fed up and it's time to puke all the craps out. No point holding back nicely. I don't give a damn. She never  treat me with due respect and neither will I do. She can go find someone else who cares, spoiled brat. She will learn her lesson elsewhere when there are more NICER people to WORSHIP her like a goddess I guess... Well, good luck with that. Other than her direct relatives, I highly doubt anyone gives a damn about what's going on when you are nobody.

Many of my friends are thinking that I am a bastard right now. Well, let me make this one point clear, I, from today on, will not give a damn to anything anymore. People are ungrateful insolent bitches and you know, what's the point of showing them respect? None deserve any.  Gone are the Godfather days where people earn respects from each other and keep social harmony. Now... spoiled people think the world has to bow down before their knees or something... jesus... and they are suppose to be a model Christian believer? HOW did THAT happen? All my religious friends actually CARE about others with a TURE heart and LIVE a life of RESPECT for others while maintaining social harmony. Such disgrace.

Anyway, what's the point of bashing her here?  Waste of my time. I got better things to do than whining about shitty business like these. Life moves on and weed out the losers. Time to get something DONE.

http://koreananimation.blogspot.com/2008/01/poop-is-cute-in-korea.html

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Some interesting thoughts.

Something that just came across my mind. You know, this life, I strive to help others as much as I can, regardless of in hope of being helped when in need or in hope of nothing in return, only now do I realize that not everyone actually want help. I mean, it's not just one, two, or three people gave me this impression... but only now do I truly reflect upon this point. Even though many people love to help other (dozen names leap to mind), when others do not want help but feel embarrassed to turn those down, that's when a peculiar situation is born and things gets ugly.

Some refuse because for fear losing face(I confess I am one), some refuse for fear of later proclamation of favor in return later on (like how the Godfather plays it), and there are others who have this very strong desire for personal independence (eg. my little sis. Who wouldn't even let me buy her bd gift haha)... Regardless of the reasons, the consequence is the same. Now I see this and realize, it's not a big deal to be selfish, people actually PRESUME you to be and don't want your help... even if you are not. Hence, why not? I mean... What's the point of actively trying to help others why they don't need your help? Apathy seems to be the ideas others are promoting around here (or maybe just Canadians are too nice to ask for help?) .... Anyway, I guess sometimes, to be un-abstemeously good is actually a pretty bad thing. Good deed always come back to hunt you in the end, just like my 1st year philosophy prof said.

Anyway, from now on, I really should mind my own business more and handle my side of things well before I even think about anything else. It's not the first time I have been labelled NOSY. Sigh... it's life, no? hahahaha.

Physical manefestation of me:
Bravo to the expert artist who rendered this piece of nice painting of me. haha.
http://oliverkurth.blogspot.com/2007/03/el-noserito.html



Friday, September 5, 2008

Something interesting

Something interesting I just found out today, next time when you face
traversities and wish to give up, remember how far you have gotten and
then back to keep trying. Once you succeed, turn back and see just how
close you were to actual success. You will be amazed how often we give
up when we are so close to victory.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Just finished GRE

Have to say,  life was not easy.

Just finish GRE and damn... at the end of verbal section, when the computer begins to ask what's the antonym of the word "suppression" and I know from that point on, it's over. The computer pretty much assumed me that I don't know any English. T-T Sigh. As most people know, the easier word you get, the poor you do. The adaptive process proves it well.

Frankly, even before they show me the score at the end, I sort of already knew it.

The quantitative section was actually not that bad although I didn't do the last question as my time was up...

However, my verbal mark seriously is going to jeopardize my chance of getting into ANY US school from what I can read on most of their description.

What sort of went quite unexpected was my written part. Even though I don't think I aced it, I actually performed it way better than my MCAT writting component I think. The GRE study definitely seriously boosted my writting skill under pressure at least. Interesting....

Well, hopefully that's the end of GRE for now. I'll probably have to try it again within the next 3 months.

Cheer, life is full of challenges I think.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Just realized something....

I find myself having trouble typing on the QWERTY keyboard because I have not typed on it for so long and now whenever I want to type something,   I would actually type it out in the DVORK fashion T-T... and I have GRE tomorrow requiring me to do the writting parts. OUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH............

This is going to hurt a lot in the essay section when I have to virtually type out EVERYTHING +_+

sigh. Life goes on. Just have to get use to it and start typing using QWERTY more I guess... Such undesirable side effect stemming from the learning of DVORK keyboards.

The Update that was LONG overdue...

Hard to believe but so many things I should have written is delayed till this moment.

Just finished my last of the 50 vocab drill over for the GRE. Have to say, it's insane and hard to manage over the past almost 30 days. Probably increased my vocabularies by at least 1000~2000. However, it's merely on the basis of recognition but not recall or actual usage. To be honest, many of the thing that I have picked up from the book is quite archaic. Sad to say but it is probably more useful for a classic major than for a science major like me. However, nevertheless, I see this as a rare opportunity for me to improve and be new.

So... here are the things I noted down in Todoist that I should have written here before

UWO Bookstore
Have to say that place is a blackhole for money. Just about a few weeks back, was throwing a small private birthday party for one of my friend was having. However, things was quite rushed and I forgot to buy her a card (actually, just remembered the day before reminded by another friend.) So I went in and randomly picked a card and didn't realized the price until checking out. The price tag was actually around $4 for an average card....   O_o feel violated lol. Not just that, the bookstore actually carry about almost 100% margin on some of the books. Can you believe that? I'm not talking about items that cost like $1 but books like this:

BOOKSTORE PRICE:
PHI2020 (002 UW) - Philosophy 2020   Instructor: David Johnston
Logic Book + Cd (Required)
ISBN: 0072944013
Author: Bergmann    Publisher: Mcgraw
On Hand: 155    On Order: 0
Price: $110.70

ECAMPUS PRICE:

Edition: 4th
Author(s): BERGMANN M
ISBN10:  0072944013
ISBN13:  9780072944013
Format:  Hardcover
Pub. Date:  9/23/2003
Publisher(s): McGraw-Hill Humanities/Social Sciences/Languages
New Price  $40.51

I mean, for anyone with a bit rudimentary skill in math, you can probably figure out that the profit margin is roughly 150%! WTF? This is totally ripoff and I have to say that's  rather ridiculous. I am going to start boycotting the bookstore from this moment on if possible and will try to only buy the custom booklet from them if possible.

On the iPhone front, I have to rent a few more complains lol.
About the disappearance and the return of ShowTimes and BoxOffice. Both were excellent apps on app store.  They both disappeared for a while and then returned.  Boxoffice is pretty well known. However, its ability to pull data off London movie theater is very limited. In fact, it only pulls about 4~5 theaters. While ShowTime has much more offer and selections. It even has Western Film, which is a BIG plus. I miss the  App "Tomatoes" though. No one seem to notice it though. It's this little app that pull the tomato ratings of any movies you can search.... sigh. The other apps can only pull the movies that are currenntly in one of the theaters. Sad now... >_<

However, the appearance of the first ever Wiki app for iPhone was invented and damn, it's the first app i bought from app store at $1.  Best dollar spent ever.

Oh... I FINALLY got the Ivyskin CASE for the iPhone 3G. It is more than  a month late!!! Can you believe that? I'll attach a few shots now. You can be the judge. It's not bad... but the reflect screen sandwith  between the case and the actually iPhone is a bit too thick and caused the black case to be bulging out a bit... sigh. Oh well, it's very nice for the back of my white iPhone 3G. It's looking solid. In fact, if you look carefully about the back of the case you can probably notice the tiny places where the case made very tight contact with the actually phone itself. Quite cozy there I imagine. I was gonna go for the reflective front casing but unfortunately, that did't happen and I now have this reinforced look of black instead. Love the transparent back though. Bottom line: their case quality is pretty solid (except for the minor unfitting near the button and near the top speaker. About 1mm out with both the top and the bottom edge.) Hardly noticable but can be felt via touch but doesn't affect anything. However, their service is terrible. Charged me the day I ordered and the goods arrived more than a month later and no appology or what so ever is offered. Man, the least they can do is to charge the plastic after the good is shipped. -_-+

Some more random thoughts that came these days:

I finally learned to look at a 3D graph using parellel vision. This sounds easy to most people and they probably think it's easy. However, the fact is that actually, I have absolutely no problem doing 3D cross vision puzzles but the parallel vision where you have to focus as though you are looking really far far away was a nightmarish thing for me to do... hehe. Happy. One more thing learned in life haha  XD.

Final thought about Shershank redemption which I finished listening to a while back... What I really like about the book is how precise they offer the potential explaination regarding how it is to be "institutionalized" after being in a confinement for a LONG time. I never understood just how that is possible. I never fully appreciate the word "institutionalized". I mean, that kind of mindset and the fear of all the new things out side that drive new releases to commit crimes again just to get back inside and get back their normal life is quite amazing... Now I see that people mean  when they say that they got screwed over by the state... WOW... how sad.... sigh. I'd hate to be in their shoes.... very very much.

Anyway, celebrating my third mirror blog site up. HOORAY! Time to get some rest....  zzzzz

An interesting quote from my GRE exercise book

Page 31 Kaplan GRE Verbal Workbook Fifth Edition ISBN 978-1-4277-9503-8

Q6. Friendship, no matter how ______, has its boundaries; __________  advice, when thrust insistently upon one, is rarely an act of friendship, regardless of the adviser's intent.

A. cool...contraditcory
B. enjoyable... obverse
C. intimate...unsolicited
D. distant...martial
E. special... desired

Let that serve as a good advice for everyone out there. It is well spoken. In short, "mind your own business".

Hard to believe but often truth are hidden within every aspect of life.